Uhm.. Hi?

I kinda forgot about this.. until now. oops.. lol

So much has changed, but it doesn't really seem like it, when it comes down to it.
Lance and I are still together ^______^ it'll be a year next month!!
Wow.. sudden realization. I just now realized this.. I can't believe that.
It's been like 8 months since I last saw him though, which is really depressing. But hey, I see him for prom, which is hella close by.. EEEEEEEEEEEE!!

We also gots a new puppy! She's adorable! Her name is Leilani, and she's a border collie. She's small right now, but give it a few months, she'll be pretty big. =]

Graduation is close by, as well.. Shit, lol I'm excited, but at the same time I'm dreading it, because part of me wants to stay here and not having to lead my life MY way without high school everyday to back me up. I mean, I'm going to West Valley to start with [it's where I'm taking a few classes now], but I'm still scared to shit. Oh well, I figure I'll be just fine, for now.. But when it comes down to me applying to the colleges I want to go to [Yale, Harvard, or Berkeley..], I'll have a nervous breakdown! Let's hope not, but when it happens, I figure we'll see, yes?
Btw, don't go commenting saying "Ooh, good luck getting into THOSE colleges.." with sarcasm dripping off of it. I need real inspiration and people actually saying "Good luck, I know you can do it!" and stuff like that. It'll just piss me off..

I miss hanging out with Joey.. I see him today, but it's like we haven't really seen each other in forever. It really sucks. We go to the same school, I see him everyday there, but we don't HANG OUT. Ugh. It's irritating. The only thing is that if we start hanging out alot, it'll get to the point where one of us think that the other is being too clingy [mainly me thinking that he is] and we'll bitch and fight, then makeup, then not hang out for a few days, then the cycle will just repeat.. oi.

I love my boys. =]
To those reading this [like anyone reads this anymore, lol], don't worry.. I miss alot of other people. Some, not so much as others, but I'm working on seeing alot more people before I graduate [or move] and schtuff. :D

Until next time..
<3

Damn..

Currently Listening You'll Rebel to Anything By Mindless Self Indulgence You'll Rebel To Anything (As Long As It's Not Challenging) see related

Random Update.

Currently Listening Rockstar Mentality By Shop Boyz Party Like A Rockstar see related

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*le sigh*

Bleh. I don't want to be here anymore..
&&I'm pretty sure that whoever reads this now these days, is sick of me ranting about how I want to leave San Jose and go back to Wilkes-Barre. So what. I don't really care about it anymore..

I'm just sick and tired of this place.
That, and I'm sick and tired of missing Lance everyday.. I want to be able to see him on a normal basis, not three, maybe four times a year for a week or two at a time.
I thought San Jose was the place for me..
But, again, I THOUGHT. It's not anymore.
It's pretty bad when you don't feel right in your own damn house. I sure as hell feel weird walking around this house, even though it's mine.. Ugh.
Sides the fact that I miss Lance and that being one of the few reasons why I want to go back, there are other reasons.
I, for the first time in a looooong time, felt like I belonged somewhere, and had this sense of automatic acceptance from just about everyone that I met there. I felt loved, and appreciated. [[alongside Lance treating me like a princess the entire time. ]] His entire family, amazingly, loved me. They made me feel as if I was a part of the family already, and that feeling feels so damn awesome.

But.. Let's step away from that for now..
Seeing as though I'm going to be here [[at the latest]] until Halloween.. >____<
Be happy, people.. Even though I'm not..

I love you Lance<3